It’s the pain in your eyes
That drew me in
That angelic disguise
That set my skin
On fire; it burned me
To the core
I had one taste of you
And I couldn’t stop wanting more.

It’s that hope in your voice
That held me up
That jubilant noise
That made me stop
Questioning; me, myself
And the burdened I
You pulled me up from the ground
And I could finally touch the sky.

It’s the sincerity in your words
That inspired me
Those heartfelt emotions
That made me feel
That you were the one
I needed around
On days I was happy
And days I was down.

It’s the passion I’ve been feeling
Ever since you opened my eyes
Those soft, gentle kisses
That triggered the butterflies
In my stomach;
And all other parts of me
You’re still my one and only
And I love you endlessly.

© Copyright 7ala Abdullah

It would have been easier if I
Loved you with just my heart
For what difference does it make if only
One part of me died?
As opposed to my whole body
(My head, my hands, my lungs and my eyes)
Falling helplessly apart
I’d give anything to love you
With just my heart

It would have been easier if I
Touched you with just my hand
For it would be easier to forget
Something that simple
As opposed to touching you
With my heart and my head
A touch like that I simply can’t forget
I’d give anything to touch you
With just my hand

It would have been easier if I
Saw you with just my eyes
For I would have nothing to compare you with
Other than the moon and the skies
As opposed to seeing you
And seeing what was behind
Those big brown eyes
I’d give anything to see you
With just my eyes

It would have been easier if I
Simply never met you
For I wouldn’t be in this
Completely shattered state of mind
As opposed to my current condition
Of tears, lies, and fake smiles
Those cold, dreary nights
I’d give anything to pretend
That we were never You and I.

© Copyright 7ala Abdullah

I can write about flowers
And birds and bees
And the way the sun’s rays
Shine through the trees
I can write about freedom
And fulfilment, and smiles
And lovers still strong
Despite separating miles

I can write about joy
And selflessness, and sanity
And lifelong commitments
To the good of humanity
I can write about good friends
Who are loyal and true
And other halves who will always
No matter what, be loving you

But I choose to write about
Heartache, and tears, and lies
And self-doubt, and loneliness
And friendships gone awry
I write about disappointments
And heartbreaking insanity
Not because I enjoy them
But because this is reality

I write about one-sided loves
And long, sleepless nights
And the feeling of emptiness
And the absence of light
I write about sadness
That captivates your every breath
I write about the pain
That follows every inevitable death

I’m not a sad, dark person
These things aren’t all I feel
But when I write I feel obliged
To write about what is real
I don’t write so you would smile
Or so I can hear you laugh
I write so you can relate to what is true
And what is indeed happening in this life

You might not like the sadness
That flows from my words
Or the never-ending madness
That my writing observes
I write because I feel
And not only happiness
I write because it is relieving to feel that
You are not alone in your tragedies.

© Copyright 7ala Abdullah

I have this need to be
The most important person
In your life
This craving,
To hear you utter the words
That without me
Nothing goes right
I wouldn’t care if I
Couldn’t reciprocate
This blinding hunger
I would be satisfied
As long as your strong heart
Upon seeing me, sinks under.

I have this need to be
The one and only reason
Your heart
Skips those beats
The only person who can cause
Your mind to
Have such beautiful dreams
I wouldn’t care if I
Never thought of you
More than once per day
The fact that I’m
Constantly on your mind
Is what I need to hear you say.

I have this need to be
The sole, painful reason
You cry every night
It’s dark of me
I know, but
Deep inside
I don’t mind
I wouldn’t care if you
Forgot about me
In a short week or two
The fact that
Once upon a time
I was
The. Most. Important. Thing.
Is what I need
To get me through.

© Copyright 7ala Abdullah

Seems like there’s no way for me
To control the way I feel for you
And you seem to be okay
With just being oblivious of my love
And I can’t seem to get enough
Of your smiles, you know
They’re the only things that
Hold me up when I’m feeling down
And I only ever feel down because
Of you

And it seems like there’s no way for me
To try and say no to you
And you seem to like the way
I do everything you ask me to
And I can’t seem to pull myself
Away from my phone when I’m missing you
Even though I know, it’ll ring and ring
And you’ll ignore it like you always do
And I won’t get mad, because it’s you
And it’s physically impossible for me to

It seems like there’s no way for me
To claw out of your grip
And it seems you like the way your laugh
So sweetly through my heart it rips
And you seem to notice the way
My heart a hundred beats it skips
When I catch a glimpse of you
It’s funny how I see you everywhere
A tiny resemblance can make me jump
It seems you’ve really got me, but it hurts that I haven’t got you.

© Copyright 7ala Abdullah